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Monday, December 13, 2010

My Beautiful Angel Mother

Penny Lynn Lane
March 12, 1948 -- October 20, 2010

OK so I have decided to get back into the swing of things and start updated my blog again.

My beautiful angel mother passed away almost two months ago, October 20, 2010 and since then I have been almost refusing to update the blog because I didn't want to write about it. But as I was thinking about my mom yesterday I realized I have started to block out some parts of the month long struggle that was October. So, best that I type it out now before I have totally blocked out the whole story.

As I have typed in a previous blog my parents came out to visit for my best friends wedding in the beginning of September. While they were here we were able to do some very fun things including; the wedding, Swiss Days, Avatar in 3D IMAX, and our fabulous family pictures by Janica Ellsworth. We noticed that for the first time in 11 years my mom was able to do everything that we had planned as if she hadn't been going through the extreme torment from over a decade of cancer battles. We knew this was a blessing from Heavenly Father, we just didn't realize at the time how big of a blessing it truly was.

They left to go back to Lancaster on September 9Th. I didn't realize that day would be the last day I would see the beautiful smile and light in her eyes. When she got home she had her normal doctor appointment. Nothing out of the norm. However, when they got the results back the doctors decided that her kidneys weren't functioning the way they should. Again, nothing out of the norm. This would require her to go into the hospital and get hooked up to an IV until her kidneys kicked into gear again. This was on Friday the 17Th but the hospital said they didn't have any room, so to come back on Monday and they would have a bed for her. Over the weekend she came down with a high fever and a kidney infection. When she went to the hospital she was immediately admitted and put on IV antibiotics. When after a week the infection didn't go away and she was having terrible pain in her artificial hip the doctors decided to draw some fluid from her hip. When the results came back they determined that her hip was highly infected and must be removed.

This was scary news to all of our family. As we have been told in the past that her body didn't have the immune system to make it through even a simple surgery. I spoke to her on the phone through all of this. I could hear the faith in her voice that she knew everything would turn out the way Heavenly Father planned, but that she was scared of what was to come. The day of the surgery I spoke to her minutes before she was to go in. I told her how much I loved her and how she has taught me so much but that I most cherish that she taught me how to be strong and never lose my faith. I think at that time I knew what was going to be her fate but I didn't want to believe it. She was a fighter and always pulled through in the past, so of course she was going to pull through again.

The doctors had to take out her hip and replace it with an antibiotic filled cement hip. Meaning she would never walk again. Sometime, either immediately after or during the surgery she suffered a stroke. The stroke effected the left side of her brain which meant that the right side of her body was paralyzed. Which was actually a blessing. This meant that she wouldn't feel the pain from the surgery.

Jeff, my brother Justin and I rushed down to Los Angeles from Utah the minute we heard the news. Only stopping once in St. George to fill up on gas. We spent the week with her in the hospital until Sunday when we decided that she wasn't getting any worse and was making small improvements. On Saturday she was moved to a skilled nursing facility where she would be watched over 24/7. We felt confident that we could head back to Utah and come back to visit in a few weeks when the stroke had worn off and we could talk to her. While driving back on Sunday we got a call from my dad that her blood oxygen level had dropped to 60%. A normal level is in the high 90's. She was taken back to the hospital until her blood oxygen level was back up. This scared us, however, dad reassured us that she would be OK and that we could come back down for the weekend but to go to school and work for the week.

Monday was the hardest day to get through, knowing that my mom was struggling and I was 700 miles away not being able to do anything. I called her and talked to her. She was able to hold a conversation. She was hard to understand with her right side paralyzed but I could still make out what she was saying.

That afternoon my dad called us to let us know that though she was showing signs of improvement, her body was actually failing her. The doctor at the skilled nursing facility gave her a few days to a week to live. Needless to say, Justin and I made the drive back down that day to be with her Tuesday morning. Jeff was unable to miss anymore work so we flew him back and forth for the weekends. She progressively got worse and worse. Before she was too bad off Justin and I were able to record her talking to us and telling us the things that she wanted us to know. We in turn we able to tell her how much we loved her and how much she has taught us. I told her that she had such an influence on me and that I know how to live and love unconditionally because of her.

My sister Pam, her son Shaun, and daughter Shelby, Shaun's girlfriend Diane and their son Jordan were able to come down a lot and be with us and mom. Also, my sister-in-law LaDona, her son Joe and her daughter Teresa were able to come out from North Carolina to be there as well. In a big surprise my brother John was able to get special permission from the Army to come back from Afghanistan to be with us as well. My mom's sister, my aunt, Jolene was able to come visit mom everyday. Also, other family members including my cousins Mike and Kim and my mom's best friends were able to see her before she passed as well. It was nice to have so much family with us at this time. It helped to keep our spirits up and know that everything would be OK.

In the final days we were able to stay the night with mom. That was some of the most wonderful times I had with mom. Though having all our family around was nice, it was amazing to be able to be there just mom and me. One of the days Jeff gave mom a priesthood blessing. At that moment I have never in my life felt so close to Heavenly Father and His son Jesus Christ. I knew they were there watching over mom and our family letting us know that everything will be OK and will work out the way it should. He was there in the room with us, protecting our hearts and our memories.

Two nights before mom passed away she began having seizures. She suffered about 14 seizures that night. They started at nine that night and went until about 11 the next morning when her body finally fell into a coma. She was in a coma from that point until 5:45 the next morning. Dad was with mom the morning she passed away. He said that in her last few minutes of life she let out a few sighs. I feel she was telling the world, "OK, I've had enough." She took in one last deep breath and released her spirit.

It was a hard few weeks but it was wonderful that we were able to be with her as a family. The morning she passed away Justin and I drove down to Los Angeles to say one last goodbye and see her before they took her body away. We said a family prayer and were comforted by each other.

I love my mom so much and always will. She will always be in my heart and will always be around to continually teach me. That was one of the things that made me the most sad. I didn't want her to die for selfish reasons. I needed her to be there for me. I needed her to teach me simple things. I needed her to call when I was bored and just needed someone to talk to. But I realized over the last few weeks that she is there. She is always around, more now than before. She is here when I miss her the most.

I know that because of our older brother Jesus Christ I will see her again in her most perfect body, smiling with that beautiful light in her eyes.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Weekends Are The Best!

**** Updated post with new pictures****
I have decided that weekends are the best for many reasons. A: Jeff loves making me breakfast on the weekends! B: We get to sleep in. C: We get to do fun things together ALL day!! Not just from 4-10!

The past few weeks have been no exception. Two weeks ago we went to some friends house to watch the BYU game... which was a bust! This is going to be a LLLOOONNNGGG rebuilding season! Needless to say we lost. But Jeff and I were able to boost our spirits by going to see The Lion King at Capitol Theater thanks to mom and dad for their awesome birthday present for me. I have wanted to see The Lion King since it came to LA over 10 years ago, so when I heard it was coming to Utah I told mom and she jumped on it to get us tickets for my birthday! Gotta love her! Copy Of The Handbill We Got At The Show

Jeff and I both got sick over that week with a head cold so we stayed in for most of the week but once Saturday rolled around we knew we had to get out of the house!! So we...

...went to check out Jeff super secret work. Well we were only aloud to go to the parking lot but it was still cool for me to see where the man of my dreams spends 40 hours of his week! I can now picture where he is when he calls me from work!
Picture of Jeff's Work from the Internet

Then it was free admission day at all National Parks so we decided we would head to Utah Valley and go see Timpanogos Caves! I always thought the hike was going to be a simple little jont up and back down. FALSE it was difficult! Maybe because I was still getting over my head cold and I couldn't breathe out of my nose, or maybe it's because I'm insanely out of shape, but that was a tough hike! However; it was worth it! The caves were incredible and the hike back down was lovely!
Jeff and I "found" our own "cave"

After the hike we drove over to Thanksgiving Point for their Harvest Festival to see the giant pumpkins. I was impressed but Jeff said the ones in Half Moon Bay in California are bigger. Maybe when we move back he'll have to show me! But as for now I am impressed! While at the festival we tried some Beeffalo, a cross between a cow and a buffalo, and actually it was pretty good. The guy selling it said it is better for you than chicken, turkey, or fish. I was skeptical about that claim but it was good to the taste. They don't sell it in stores so that will probably be the last time we try it... oh well!Jeff with one of the big pumpkins
Lyndsey with the biggest pumpkin

Then we finished off the day with the BYU game... disaster again!! All I have to say is that Bronco needs to take over his defense again and ditch the offensive coordinator then we might have a chance with such a young team!!

Well, overall weekends are where its at! Jeff and I are excited for this weekend since it's time again for General Conference! We love the two weekends a year where we can listen to the Prophet and his counselors.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Weddings, Festivals, and Birthdays

This past week we had my parents come and visit us for a whole week! It was a ton of fun and very eventful.

On Thursday when they got here we met Shannen and Josh and their respective families for a "rehersal" dinner at Chuck-A-Rama. Then went to Kathy and Gary's for a fun family get together before the big wedding.

Friday morning we had to be at the temple by 11:30 for the sealing of Josh and Shannen. It was beautiful! After the sealing we took group/bridesmaids/groomsmen/family pictures. Then we sent the others away and strolled around temple square to take pictures of just Shannen and Josh. What a beautiful couple! Josh's parents held a luncheon for close family and friends at the Joesph Smith Memorial Building then we were whisked away to The Old Meeting House for the reception. I just have to say that the year of planning was worth it! They had a beautiful wedding and reception!
On Saturday we went to the world famous-kinda- Swiss Days. It's an arts and crafts festival that is actually worth going to! The entire tiny town of Midway, UT is taken over for this festival! I loved all the crafts I just wish we were rich enough to buy something. Oh well maybe next year! We went to Cafe Rio for dinner that night. Mom had been craving that since the last time she was here. Sadly she didn't get a good meal so she was disappointed and Dad didn't really care for his meal either. Oh well, we tried!

Sunday we went to church and our little CTR 4's were as cute as ever! Then Mom and I made a wonderful dinner of chicken, stuffing, yams, and broccoli. YUM!
Monday was Dad's birthday so we took him to This Is The Place Historical Monument. He likes that kind of stuff so we thought it would be perfect. Turns out we all had a great time! We haven't spent time together as a family since we went to Hawaii in 2005, so it was good to get that quality time with them! We went to Goodwood BBQ for Dad's birthday dinner then came home to open presents! Overall, I think Dad had a wonderful 66th birthday!
On Tuesday we drove down to Provo to take some family pictures. My friend Janica is a great photographer and she took our pictures for us. (Check her out at www.janicalarae.com) Then we went to Creamery on 9th for dinner and dessert. We love it when my parents come to visit us because they take us out to dinner nearly every night! Which equals no cooking for me and no dishes for Jeff. It really is a win-win for everyone! Then we went to Justin's apartment in Provo. It's a pretty nice place, there's 28 stairs to get to it, but it's nice.
Wednesday was their last day so we took it easy and just hung out at the house until Jeff got home. Then we went to see Avatar in IMAX 3D at Jordan Commons. My parents hadn't seen it before and we all thought it would be their kind of movie. And it was. They both loved it.

This past week has been so much fun having my parents and Justin around. I wish we all lived closer to each other but for now we'll just have to settle for the visits every few months! We love our family and can't wait to see them again at Christmas.

Monday, August 9, 2010

And the Thunder Rolls

This is our favorite picture

We have been having some crazy thunder and lightening storms the last few weeks, and of course Jeff and I took advantage of it. We love thunder and lightening! We were able to sit outside on our porch to watch and listen to the pounding sounds roll close! You know the second rule, well before we would even start counting the lightening would strike. Ya, that's right the storm was right at our back door! We snapped some photos of the night. It took us millions of attempts using the multiple picture mode (I don't know what it is really called) but we finally got some good ones. This particular storm started at 4:00 pm and lasted non-stop until about 4:00 am! It was a wonder to behold!
That is the Draper Temple shinning in the night


Friday, July 30, 2010

We Love To See The Temple

Yesterday Jeff and I were planning on doing a session in the Draper Temple. However, when we got there the 7:00 session was packed and we didn't want to wait for the 8:00 to start. So we decided to do sealings. We had never done this before (besides our own sealing) so it was great to get to hear and remember the blessings promised to us. We loved doing sealings and remembering how it felt 2 years ago when we were sealed for time and all eternity. We plan on going back and doing this more in the future and not just as a last minute switch!

Monday, July 19, 2010

Summer Nights

Movie in the Park

This weekend was the famous Draper Days! Of course we had to go and check it out! It started on Thursday with Movie in the Park. We watched The Fabulous Mr. Fox. It is a cute movie, weird, but cute! Then Saturday we walked around the festival. It wasn't as great as I thought it would be. I never thought I would have said this but Lancaster's festivals were a lot better than the ones I've been to here in Utah the last few weeks! BUMMER! All the booths were for jewelery, sunglasses, removable tattoos, or businesses trying to sell their product (air conditioners, insurance, BLAH). I like the crafty booths they had in Lancaster. You would think, in the craft capital of the world, they would have more crafty booths! Enough ranting! Saturday night we were planning on going to Beatlemania but Jeff's allergies got the best of him so we stayed in. Luckily we live close enough to Draper Park that we were able to watch the fireworks from our kitchen window! Beautiful! We live for fireworks in the summer and Utah finds any event to have fireworks! LOVE IT!

We are loving the summer nights here in Draper and are excited for the all we have yet to experience.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

A Night Out

Waiting for the Orchestra to begin

Yesterday was the grand opening of the Draper Ampitheater. The Utah Symphony Orchestra did a free concert and of course Jeff and I went! It was so fun to get out of the house and listen to some good wholesome music! It was a hot and sunny day but when the sun went down it was a great evening! I love my husband and I loved spending this time with him.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Everyone Has To Start Somewhere, Right?

I was talking to some friends a few days ago and realized I don't really "blog" even though we've had this blog since we got married. So I have decided to make it a point to "blog" even if no one reads it, I will still have a journal of sorts to show our kids.

Let's see where to start.

This weekend was a fun filled weekend. We started off the Fourth of July weekend by going to Provo, UT to sit outside the LaVell Edwards Stadium to watch Stadium of Fire. We got down there early so we could walk around the festival and still make it to SOF. We enjoyed listening to Carrie Underwood and watching fireworks. We thought the show was over so we decided to cut through the stadium to get back to the car. Little did we know it was still going on so we were able to watch a little bit of it. While we were inside one of the fireworks mis-fired and shot into the crowd. Unfortunately, someone caught on fire. Everyone around her jumped on top of her. It looked like she walked away from it and wasn't that hurt. Once the show was over we made a mad dash to the car. While we were bustling around the stadium, who should I literally run into? Oh no one important, just Steve Young!! It was cool but he didn't even stop, so there went my brush with stardom! We had a BBQ with the Cosgroves on Sunday and finished the weekend on Monday with swimming and catching up on some much needed R&R.

We hope all of you had a wonderful Fourth of July! We are so blessed to live in this great country with so many freedoms and liberties. I hope no one forgets the many men and women who make our freedom possible. Thank you to all those willing to give your life!